Heartbreak, soul-break, what-the-fuck-break - my entire system went into overdrive, clusterfuck, universal dishwasher, nothing-makes-sense anymore.. any now I'm more alive than ever.
Not that this process hadn't happened 16 times in my earthly life already (at least as my current self), but it hasn't ever been as vivid as now. Leaving my home in the countryside, having uncertainty in projects (welcome all other entrepreneurs to the wild ride of doing anything), getting on an emotional rollercoaster with a wonder of a hooman (WOW), while changing continents in the middle of a big personal transformation into full trust God-mode activation was... maybe the only way God could have sent me into full surrender.
I'll write more about that shortly, but the simplicity and beauty life has met me with after fully giving in and not giving up on God in this entire process showed me a facet of life I hoped was there but could never really grasp. A subtle omnipresent force of nature that is just waiting to take over to show you the absolute utmost gorgeous deliciousness of life in such an effortless way. It just needs... your entire life. You will die. I died. 21352315 times.
I'll tell you how this works next time lol. Still figuring out a lot myself but there are keys that I received that I feel like I should share with you.
Anyways. I asked God for a prayer, here it is:
Try it out, see how it feels.
So much love to you. If you ever need anything, or you have a question, just reach out!